Her Forbidden Site

2011-09-17T21:55:00.000+08:00

I've stopped blogging for nearly a year and the thought of writing again suddenly came rushing all over me.

I guess I should start writing again. Leaving random thoughts, writing things I feel like pouring out to the world, I'll make it a must for me. :) I'll make it a must despite how busy I am. I promise to blog about something everyday. So here I am pouring out something I've been having in my mind for quite some time. By letting this out, I guess it'll make me feel good eventually.

I'd realised that I've been chasing after things, you name it, love, friendship and what not. Life seems kind of lifeless without all these elements. Guess what? I've kinda let this go a couple of days ago when a random thought hits me, I've decided that I don't need all those when I can find them all in God. Happiness and love will find their way to you, there's no need for u to go digging n searching for them. When the right time comes, it'll come knocking on your door. It'll never be now, but it'll never be never. ;) Well, I've been dealing with people who treat me like a toy. When they want you, they come to you and when they don't they leave you hanging around, feeling all so miserable and yes, you wouldn't know how to respond to such situation.

This, seriously made me felt like crap. I'm a normal being and I don't deserve to be treated like this. And guess what, I don't give a cake about that person anymore though there are times when I feel like I shouldn't just let it go just because I've wasted so much time hoping and wanting to make things right. But it doesn't feel right, not after the cold treatment I've been getting from that particular person. I've decided to forget about everything.

Rushing into something, wanting to have someone in your life because you feel like a loner without someone. Well, it happens and trust me it's okay to feel like this. You're not alone. =) Seeing people and seeing your friends with someone special in their lives makes you feel a little lonely, isn't it? I tell you this, It's okay to feel lonely. I personally believe that to wait is better than to rush into something whilst you end up getting into a shitty-position because that person u're with is not the right person. :)

And one more thing, people have been calling me ~~gay, lezza~~ and all the nonsense for quite some time. Well, it's quite offending seriously. I am absolutely straight. I just love being myself and if u can't accept it, it's your problem not mine. Just because I've screwed up in the past, got along with the wrong person and he ended up screwing it all up, that doesn't make me ~~gay~~. Just because I'm with noone right now, that doesn't make me ~~gay.~~

Just because I used to have someone as close to me as a sister, that doesn't make me ~~gay~~. She is my sister and yes I still love her and look up to her. So please, stop judging and keep that to yourself. Stop being all so nosy, sticking your nose into other people's business if u cant even take care of ur very own business.

Please, and thank u.

Sorry If I sounded a little harsh but it's the truth to be told. If you're going to keep following and reading this blog of mine, I got to be truthful about myself first. :D so yeah.

When I have the time and money, I'll start investing on girlie clothes, I will really. So please stop calling me things I don't wish to hear alright? I guess it doesn't matter what I wear right now, or does it really matter? Clothing is just a material thing. If someone loves you for your looks, for ur clothing, I'll say that's really sad. What's the point of putting nice clothing on, putting pretty makeups on your face when deep down u're full of !@#$% if u get what i mean. So please, stop judging. It hurts when people start saying things like "Why are you always like this?' 'Why don't you put on dresses n start wearing skirts?' 'That will stop people from thinking that you're not straight?' Is there such a theory? I mean really? -_-

Oh well. I'm comfortable with what I am right now. If people have a problem with that, I'll just ignore it and do what I do best in life with a condition, if God is totally happy with what I am now, then it'll be fine. If he's not and if I think I've been wasting my time on something that doesn't worth my time, I got to stop and start doing what God wants me to do. =)

All I care about is doing the right thing and being the right person in His eyes. That is all that matters.

This is real this is me.

And yesI'm officially back to the blogging word.

Hi bloggie!

2010-12-27T21:50:00.004+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I'm kinda busy with my finals for now.
Can u believe that I had an awesome Christmas this year celebrating it with my Macroeconomics' books? =(
It's pathetic, isn't it?

Anyhow, it was fun. Christmas is not all about celebrating it with people, being happy and all yappy receiving presents, seeing santa with his big-phat-huge-red bag filled with prezzies. Christmas isn't about reindeers, snowman, snow, turkey, chicken,monkey,dog, cat, frog, crab, nutcracker etc.
It's not all about that.

The whole truth is this, Christmas is all about Jesus.
Mary gave birth to Jesus on this very day and that was what made this very day special.
If Jesus weren't born into this world.. We'll still remain as sinners.
We'll be hopeless, loveless and faithless creatures on this Earth.

=)

so Yeah!!!
Happy Belated Christmas to all the faithful readers out there.
Sorry for not blogging.
xD
Heh~ Tat's all from me now.

.This is my awesome-looking-face for the year.

Baby, I knw.
Kthxbai!
xD

My sincere apology

2010-09-21T22:22:00.005+08:00

I have this very burden in my heart right after doing my devotion.
I just want to apologise sincerely to everyone as in EVERYONE.
So i'm going to blog about this.
See the picture up there?
I'll relate a few points in the picture with what I'm about to blog now.

That very picture appeared in my devotion and guess what?
I realise that I haven't been doing the right thing for the past few months and years.

p/s: to whoever who're/who'll be reading this.
U know who you are..

Truly, we as human we do screw things up in life, don't we?
I did, honestly, I did.
I hurt ppl many times, be it intentionally or not but I did and I felt horrible.
I sincerely apologise if I've ever hurt your feelings or wasted ur time.
I'm being very general here.
I'm refering to everyone, friends who used to and is close to me.

I sincerely apologise for whatever things I've done/ said in the past.
I know I can never take it back.
Be it my actions, be it my speeches, be it anything.
Whatsoever things I've said and done I can't take it back but I know I can do something about it
if I choose to.
Honestly, I hate myself for wasting ppl's time and hurting others.
I don't intend to do so.
I'm really really sorry if I did.
truly, I am.

Sorry..

~

Me and my heart we've got issues.

2010-09-18T16:22:00.005+08:00

I'm a little here and there. Let's just say I'm a little bit all over the places, not being able to tell myself that i'm officialy STABLE. I'm emotionally, spiritually and pysically unstable and erm it's a lilttle crappy.
I've stopped blogging since ages ago, i knw~ An undeniable fact that i did abandon my blog -like months ago?.
I'm struggling with 'only God knows how it feels like to be me' issue.
Tiny bits of here and there which sums up to this crappy-indescribable-feeling.

I kinda get it, it's a mixture of everything.

Well, I started off with college in May, and I can say that everything was smooth.
I know He's with me all the time and I'm so in love with Him.
But there are times I just feel like life is so meaningless, it's as if im chasing after the wind.

1 Corinthians 9:26- NLT
So I run with purpose in every step,
I am not just shawdow-boxing.

Somehow;somewhut,
this verse assured me that I'm not running and doing things that are purposeless in life.
I have a purpose in life and God has a future and a plan for me.

as stated in Jeremiah 29: 11,
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord
plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans for hope and a future.

Everything was clearly stated and I fully understood it but there are times where I'm lost somewhere in the middle of something and everything seems so blurry and this very crappy-feeling i've been struggling with will eventually take control of me and I don't know what to do.

I haven't been consistent in practically everything I do. I guess that's the root-problem. That's the main reason why I've been so indulged with this crappy feelings for a couple of months. or maybe yrs?

I'm done with my first semester in college, i'm so done with my finals and now i'm on hols and it doesn't feel like I'm relaxing or having a great time of my life. I'm not on holiday-mood i guess?

lol~ to~that

Neways, I'm dealing with an issue I don't fully understand. Nobody knows how it feels like only He knows. I've been talking to Him about it but I guess it's time for me to pull up my socks and tell myself that it's time to be serious. It's a matter of fact that I haven't been serious all this while. I told myself that I will but I didn't.

It's time to put a big full stop to this un-seriousness of mine. I can be serious but it can never last. Again it's time to put a BIG full stop to this inconsistent serious-ness of mine.

i need to change my attitude. Tat's it.

i knw this is really random. But well, my forehead spells random so I'M JUST BEING RANDOM here. lol~
K then tat's all.ta's~

Eve- Reunion Dinner with Fam~

2010-02-14T22:43:00.015+08:00

We had our Reunion Dinner at Cheer Palace, Cheras

yesterday..

*The restaurant*

The salmon "lou-sang" was superb!

.Everything was superb.

We often eat here but it's unexpected that the food for CNY itself is superb too.

Well, most of us enjoyed the food.

We had fun laughing our hearts out too as Uncle and Mama cracked lots of

lame and funny jokes!

xD!

Thanks Cheer Palace for the yummy food!

Oh and btw, the food was supposed to be served at 7.30pm sharp..
=.="

But we waited for 2 hrs.. So wut we did was...

We camwhored the whole time while waiting for the food to be served.

~lol~

Here are the pictures:
*Cousins and my beloved Aunties*

*Me, aunt, Cousin*

*Cousin Sis and me Mama*

This cousin of mine looks exactly like my mum btw.

*Me, Ma and Pap*

Am really glad that ma dad's sickness has recovered a whole lot lately.
Thank u Jesus!

And thank you to everyone too who has been praying for him.

*Me Aunt and her family*

*Cousin Sis, Me*

*Cousin Bro, Me*

*Me, Me aunt, Me cousin*

*Me aunt, Me Cousin Sis*

*Me Cousin Bro and Cousin Sis*

*Me, and Me Cousin Sis*

*Me and both me Cousin Sistahs*

*~Weeeee~*

Since this year is the year of Tiger
so this is what we did

RAWR!!!!

Beware!!
we've got tiger's claws ya knw!!

xD

Well Peps, I'll be off to Penang tmr at 6am for 2 days

Will update on Penang soon when I'm back ayte?

Happy Chinese New Year to all of you yeah!

Have fun!

See ya~!

Ta's~

Amazing voice ~ ♥

2010-02-05T18:27:00.000+08:00

Charice Pempengco, a Philippino.

It mesmerizes me till the core when I watch all her videos.

I just can't possibly imagine that there's someone outside there who is so talented.

It's way beyond imagination..

She's seriously God's gift sent from Heaven.

Watching her is like watching an angel singing..

I'm so proud to be an Asian.

LoL!

I'll be uploading a few videos here.. do watch it.

Trust me u'll want to watch more of her videos..

Absolutely amazing and fantastic!

Her voice is undescribable.
No words can describe how talented she is..

I'm just so amazed by her voice..

.lol.

How can someone be so good? I just can't find ways to believe it..

realli..

This is so scary.

Well, what I really like about her is this...

She's fierce and furious! Rawr!!

This sums up to her brilliant-ness plus amazing-ness.

Truly, it's...

.Unbelievable.

In this vid, Charice and Hyu Kyun (from SuperJunior)
when she was 12.

Gosh! A twelve years old?!!

No words can describe how superb she is..

lol!

I just love her! ♥

haha~ =D

K tat's all!

Ciaox~

Healthy-Rob and some random-ness

2010-02-04T00:39:00.000+08:00

Rob is getting fluffier and healthier each day!

I'm in love with him even more !

He was so tiny in tis pic.. look at how thin he used to be.

Bathing time ! xD

And here's ma male pig I used to call Erza. cuz i tot it was a female. LOL

Aunt snapped a picture of a dog sleeping on a car..

am.....

speechless

....

=.=

heh~ k tat's all.. it's real random i knw.. I'm bored!

hah~

k byes~

It's all because of you ♥

2010-01-29T17:28:00.000+08:00

I dare to dream dreams because with you I need not stray,

for my hope n future are in ur hands.

Truly, u are my strength, strength like no other and

truly u are my hope, hope like no other.

In Jeremiah 29:11 God assures us when He says he has plans for us,

plans to prosper us and not to harm us,

plans for a hope and a ...future.

Thank you Jesus for giving me the assurance.

I admit that challanges and trials are inevitable but with you around..

I need not fear..

That's because you'll be guiding me and you'll accompany me through everything.

Through stormy seasons, through windy seasons,

and even through hot and cold seasons.

I acknowledge of your great love and strength.

You are my ulitmate most guidance,

I pray that whenever I fail to see things/ fail to walk the walk you want me to..

You'll continue to help me not to continue but bring me back to you..

as..

I wanna walk hand in hand with you.

I want to see things the way you want me to see,

I want to love others, the way u want me to love.

Teach me to be more like you.

This is my prayer for today...

♥

.I.Love.You.

The-recent-Me ~ ♥

2010-01-28T15:08:00.000+08:00

People...
I've abandoned this blog for quite some time, haven't I?

I'm extremely sorry but I seriously don't find my life interesting so I chose not to update this bloggie.

x

Well, just-so-you-know..
My life has been the same from the day I finished my SPM till now..
Hmm..my daily routine at home is to online, eat, and sleep.
Just recently I found some cool manga's online and I'm going to start reading it like everyday.
hee~

And uhh,many things happened for the past few days..

It's just ironic how things can happen so fast..

I just wanna take this time to thank God for His divine intervention. ♥
Without Him I don't think I can possibly make it through..

Well, I've been really emotional for the past few days..

Lets just say..

I'm quite sensitive when it comes to 'this'

(I'm not going to say anything here, so I'll just keep it short and simple)

I managed to patch things up with someone-u-won't-know-who.

xP

Before this, I was being really oblivious when it comes to things..

I've screwed the entire thing and caused someone to explode.

I admit that it was my-bad..

=(

i'm sorry really sorry ayte..!

x(

As for now,
I'm really grateful for everything.. I'm currently in love with everything in my life. ♥
It's hard for me to tell.. I'm just so yappy! yay!

=D

k tat's all! xD
a short update will do to keep u guys updated about ma-life-now.

~hee~

k ta's!
♥

New year, New resolutions;

2009-12-27T21:30:00.000+08:00

Someone posted this in facebook..
I find it really meaningful..

"As the year 2009 is going to an end.

What has been done is done and what we have accomplished ,and lost have come to past for we are not going to look back on the good old days or the worst but we are going to move on with the LORD in the year 2010 and we will persist in his word, his love and in his ministry."

"GLORY TO GOD"

"WELCOME THE YEAR OF FAVOR!"

~~~

p/s: to God

2010 will be the start of something new,

it'll be the begining for everything.

I am going to go through the year 2010 knowing that God is in me and with me.

I know it is going to be a year full of challenges.. but wutever it is..

I'll always remember this..

God is going to go through this with me.

Thank you Jesus for being with me throughout this year.

I'll continue to have faith in you, I'll continue to put my complete trust in you

and I pray that I'll be constantly reminded of your great love and strength

whenever I grow weary and feel like giving up so badly.

Give me the courage to move on, let me not see myself as a complete failure,

let me not rely on my own strength but to really realise this,

I can't be doing things myself because

what I need is to be fully dependant on u.

I want to quit doing things on my own.

I'm not going to go through the year 2010 alone, because I have you..

You'll go through this with me and I shall not be afraid.

I pray that whenever I feel crappy or lonely let me be reminded that Jesus,

u're always there and u'll never leave me nor forsake me.

Let the year 2010 be a year filled with fulfillment.

I don't want to regret nor cry over

things I've failed to accomplish.

I'm sorry if I have not been the one u've always wanted me to be.

Dear Lord , I just want to take this time to thank u

for always being faithful and just there

when i needed u most.

Thank u Jesus.

Thank u for all the good things u've done throughout these 4 yrs.

Knowing u was the best thing I've ever had.

I love u Jesus and I will continue to love u even more each day.

Merry Christmas;

2009-12-25T21:47:00.000+08:00

Hohoho!

Robert Pattinson a.k.a Santa Rob-Pat wishes all of you

Merry Christmas!!

May Peace be your gift at Christmas and your blessing all year through.

Be Merry and Happy.

Have a wonderful Christmas people!

=)

Well, Norman Wesley Brooks once said,

Christmas is forever, not for just one day,
for loving, sharing, giving, are not to put away
like bells and lights and tinsel, in some box upon a shelf.
The good you do for others is good you do yourself...

"Let Every Day Be Christmas,"

I truly believe in this.

Most importantly

Christmas is all about celebrating the birth of Jesus Christ!

Happy Birthday Jesus!

Once again,

Merry Christmas to all of you, folks!

Have a blessed Christmas.

~ta's

Bringing back those memories

2009-12-24T20:39:00.001+08:00

I was looking at my mum's album collections and

I saw lotsa pictures of me when I was younger.

It brings back lotsa memories.

It really does...

*The-few-months-old-me*

*Cousin sis's 9th birthday.*

*Cousin bro was crying cuz he wanted the prizie.*
*Spot the smiley me*

~hee~

*Me and mama @ Sungai Wang's garfield shop*

*Me @ the Zoo

*Me 12th Birthday Parteh*
*I was a big fan of DragonBall, look at the cakie*
lmao

*Trip to Penang with friends and teachers*
We were 12 back then

*Muah first birthday*

*Me, my ma and pap*

*I was still in my mama's womb here*

Notice the date, it was taken on the

22nd of Julai 1992

Was going through pictures in FaceBook too..

I'll be missing me teachers, me friends and me school.

*Metro Point's toilet

*LOL!!

*Hari Koperasi 2009*

*Aku.Sam.Farah*

*Aku.Yean Lee*

*Sukan-neka 2009*

*Convent's graduation day*

*Yeah.Aku*

*Pn. Lim, we'll be missing u and ur sarcasm!*

*Supermodels of the day*

Sneak-peak-of Convent's toilet

Our Young and faithful days.

.our.passion.for.the.balls.

lmao

*The committee*

*The players*

tat's all peps!

~ta's!

Prom 2009~

2009-12-19T17:16:00.000+08:00

There's only one word to describe Convent's Prom 2009...

It was FABULOUS!!!

Tho it was in Kajang but it wasn't as bad as wut all of us thought it would be..

>.<

The food wasn't that good. To be honest, it sucked. Let's not talk about that ayte cuz overall it was aweeeesome and GREAT!

=) !

Well afterall,

prom is a day where everyone gets the chance to dress themselves up like

a superstar.

You peps can see it for urself.

; )

Aku.Sook Han.Edlyn(b'hind S.H).Rachael.Sam.SayYie.Yeah

.Sherene.Yeah.Aku

.Yeah.Aku.FenTein.

.Aku.Yeah.Rachael.

.Sam.Rachael.Aku.Yeah.

.SookHan.Saya.

~Aku ~Yeah~

~Aku~ Yeah~

~Yeah~Aku~

~Aku~Yeah~ ---RAWR!~~

Caprice, our famous Malaysian rapper came to perform for our prom...
.lol.
Everyone was so excited.. I just don't understand why..

Me and Yeah were sitting at some corners..
-.-

He looks kinda cute btw. But but but...

I don't go GAGA over him like everyone else.

=P !!

(p/s: LiL, this proves that I'm not that miang!!)

Spotlight of the day,
CapRice a.k.a TopiNasi

.Sam. Edlyn. CapRice.

Queen Anne. CapRice. King Joseph (Anne's bf)

They were the Prom Queen and King for the year 2009.

~~~

I'll end this post with a few pic of mine lar k?

Just so-u-know, it's my first time wearing a dress and putting on make ups!

>..<

am looking all B-i-t-c-h-y in this pic.

.lol.

Ayte. Am Done.

ta's!

Found

2009-12-18T16:55:00.001+08:00

This was 2 months ago.

Aunt found this Pomenarian dog in a drain near her parking area.

U'll never want to rescue a fugly dog which has got bleeds on both its ears and

has some kind of weird skin disease all over its body.

One word to describe this dog,

it's gross!

Well, just so you know... I have a very kind aunt..

(p/s: Aunt, if u're reading this, pls don't get too flattered ayte!)

hahas!

Aunt rescued the dog from the drain and sent it to a vet,

got a cage, food, shampoo, and meds for the him.

Btw, the dog's medicated shampoo is far more expensive than my shampoo. -.-''

It costs more than 40 bucks.

.lmao.

She practically spent few hundreds $$ on that erm..

i shall not call it fugly so let's call it..

a dog- which- has- got- funny- look.

>..<

I'm not tryna be evil or wutsoever here but it looked really

hideous when it first came to my house.

Nobody wants to touch him, sees him or even go near to him b'cuz

it has got some kinda weird smell on its,

infected-with-skin-disease-bodeh.

I was in the midst of studying for SPM and there he comes,

the dog.

To be honest, i was afraid to even see it..

.lol.

With the love and attention we have for him,

he gets really happy

and with all the love and attention we gave, he starts to recover slowly.

He's getting cuter and cuter day-by-day.

; )

Oh and btw, this dog's officially owner is 'ME'.

Neway, I've started to fall in love with this dog since day one.

It's a-he-likes-me-I like him kind of thing.

lol

hey! it's not wrong to fall in love with dogs!

Just so u knw, dogs are always faithful and loyal to their owners, unlike man!

heh!

p/s: to all the guys out there;

If dogs can be so faithful and loyal, maybe u guys shud follow doggie's good example

which is to always be faithful and loyal to your gf and wife.

Well, it's true wert, if dogs can be loyal and faithful why not us as human?

does this make sense to u?

lol.

I know this doesn't make much sense to u ppl.

ha's!

Neway, this doggie of mine is extremely healthy, phat and hairy.

It's a male and ma cousin has decided to name him Robbie.

Robbie the phatty.

>.<

Robbie is part of our family and

this is how he looks like now..

I snapped these pics tis morning.

Have fun admiring me-handsome-boy-ie.

What surprises me most was this,

my dog actually played with a
monkey-from-somewhere-i-don't-know-where.

Check this out...

He's so adorable, isn't he?

^-^

pps: Will update about prom soon.

ta's~

LOL!!!

2009-12-16T21:33:00.000+08:00

I felt real crappy when I came home for some reasons.

.sigh.

I don't feel like explaining..

Neway, this picture kinda made my day.

It made me laugh like cheezel.

Lmao

I find it really funny tho.

`Click to enlarge it.`

.have fun laughing.

I really wonder how Bella would react if Edward were to show his gigantic hamster eyeballs

and his tiny little lips.

.lol.

signs off~

The return

2009-12-15T16:31:00.001+08:00

I know it has been quite some time since I last blogged. lol!

I'm really really sorry for that people.

Well, u know... i'm a real busy woman. =P

I must admit that I've been very busy with tons of things immediately after SPM.

8th of December 2009 marks the history of all the Science stream students of SMK Convent Kjg.

It was the day when we gained our ultimate most freedom! =)

Here are the list of-things-i-did right after SPM:

-I was in Midvalley on the 9th with most of the form 5's. Well our main purpose was to watch NewMoon on that day. We were there 5hours before the movie started. So what most of us did was shopping for prom. Say Yie got her heels and she was admiring it the whole time. More updates on their blog. heh!

Neway, the movie was okay but I personally think Twilight was much better.

-My churchmates and I attended the APYAC (Asia Pacific Youth Alive Conference) in PJ for 3 days.

I'm pretty sure most of us had learnt a lot throughout the conference.

We had fun laughing our arses out as the speakers were filled with absolute sarcasm the whole time.

(It's good as it helps to keep us awake, lol.)

Well, God actually spoke to us in many ways.

I believe APYAC was a life-changing event. It'll be a start of something new for many of us. To never be our old-selves once again but to be the one he wants us to be.

APYAC was the begining for us, it is a stepping stone for us to change our way of thinking.

No more selfish thinking or wutsoever.

I really believe, life doesn't involve only us, but it also involves people who are around us.

That is the main reason why we have to quit being in our very own comfort zone and to start thinking what's best for God, others and ourselves.

Thank you Jesus for speaking to us!

-I'm currently in one of my friend's house now.

Am having fun eating, sleeping, laughing and playing here. lol

-oh and btw, prom will be in another 2days time. yay!

hmmm..

.there are many things yet to be done.

Will keep u guys update so do remember to link me and keep urself on track with my life.

Will try my best to update everyday alright!

p/s 1:

To all the form 5's out there, Happy Holiday-ing! =P

We're breaking free from all the rules and regulations of school! hoo-ray!

And now it is time for us to enjoy and do whatsoever we want to do! haha~

Do Have fun people! =P

p/s 2:

To all the kids out there who are still in the midst of enjoying urself, have fun before school reopens yeah! Do remember to enjoy ur highschool life. I meant it.

I've started to miss sch now seriously.

Being in Convent for 11 years..

it is supremly saddening when school is never going to be part of my life anymore.

So ppl, please learn to treasure and cherish your true, reliable and faithful friends.

They are the one you are going to miss most!

When u face the world out there, there'll be all kinds of people..

It's the fact that u can hardly find someone whom u can trust.

But if u ever find one, pls try ur very best to treasure and cherish em.

U'll never regret. Well that's becuz,

a true friend is what u need in life. =)

signs off~